Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Activating My Faith


“I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to the mountain, ’Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you”. Matthew 17:20

The other morning God woke me up at 2:49 a.m. to tell me He loved me and not to worry about anything that He was taking care of everything for me. An hour after talking to the Father, I went back to sleep. I found one of the many dreams I had that morning very odd. In the dream I was trying to make it too the top of a platform so that I could spit whatever was in my mouth out. My mouth was so fully of something but I did not know what until I reached the top and as I opened my mouth diamonds began to come out. I really do not know what the dream means but I do know I am a diamond to my Heavenly Father, who has promised to give me the desires of my heart and to bless what I put my hands too.

Which brings me to the thoughts of this entry; I often tell friends and family members to trust God and He will work everything out for them, they just have to have faith. While Ryane was not taking her own advice, nope, I was not taking my own advice. I was not fully trusting God to work things out for me. Some years ago God told me to write a book, which I did after some initial struggles with the Father. But I have been dragging my feet in getting the book published. I first dragged my feet about publishing the book because I really did not want to open my life up too thousands or millions of people who I did not know. After all, my story was between me and my God. I got over that. Then I started dragging my feet on finding a publisher for the book. Sending query letters out ever so often but not really pushing the issue or following up.

Then at the started of this new year I was home on bed rest with pneumonia the thoughts of going back to a job and not walking in the career that I know God has ordained for me was at the forefront of my thoughts. I am grateful for my job in these hard economic times but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt what God has called me too and that is to be an author. To write the stories He has and will give me. That is why I believe going back and being back at work these last two weeks has been hard because I know what God has called me to do but I have got comfortable with my job and situation. Which is not what God has called me to at all?

So I believe the 2:49 a.m. wake up call was a call to move forward with the plans He has for me. I am thinking about what the Father said to Jeremiah in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” The other day one of the saints told me, God never calls you to do something without first preparing you for the tasked. He has spent the last fours years of our being together preparing me to take a bold stand in His name. I am ready to take that bold stand in the name of my Heavenly Father. With a bold stand forward, I am ready to step out on faith and self publish the glory story He has given me and to move into the things He has for me.

I am cast all fear to the side because perfect love cast out all fear and with the love of the Holy Trinity behind me I am moving forward in my call. So, my first book From the Gutters to a Mansion: My Journey to My Heavenly Father will be out late February/early March no exceptions. I know God is going to get the glory out of this book and my life. I am activating my faith and stopping out on the promise of my Heavenly Father to take care of everything for me.

I have complete faith He will do so because He is a God that does not lie. If He said then it shall be done.